Monday, February 18, 2013

The Minds of Others

It is what gives work meaning. But, what if I speak an entirely different language from those who are judging my work? I have heard it said that English majors don't read literature anymore. True or not, they certainly don't read the same books I did. Of course, some of this is describable as distinction: no one reads the same "books". I once went through the mental exercise of trying to figure how many of the roughly 50,000 remaining readers of Ancient Greek and Latin in the United States also attended law school and got an MFA. A small number, I bet. And those are probably just three minor irrelevant facts.  The real stuff, the real teachers in our lives, the alcoholic drug-addicted mother, the girl one fell in love with in high school, the death of a close friend, etc, etc., etc., are each different for each of us. So back to books.

It's astounding to me how often on first review of a new poem, I see the echos in it, the allusions, the tone picked up from thousands of poems read in several different languages. One must be wary of pride in this and I was more than a little mean-spirited the other day. I was sitting next to a young woman who has been writing poetry and performing at a local "spoken word" venue. I asked her about where her poetry originated, what inspired her, and she talked about about a group of incarcerated women she met who have evolved a rap-inspired spoken word to help them process the injustice in their lives. This is a beautiful thing. Beautiful in itself and beautiful to be inspired by it. But it also made me feel very alone, like a distant cold satellite in a wobbly orbit around a green and happy planet. When she asked me about my work, I told her that I had been writing poetry since I was in third grade, I listed the languages I had learned all or part of, the teachers with whom I had studied, the aesthetic school with which I had once been associated, the degrees I had collected, the reading I did in art history, philosophy, science, and the poets whom I loved more than others, whose music and depth still was a fount of inspiration. When I was done, I apologized for being an ass.

Of course, I am imagining the supposed audience. Here is what I imagine (some of this is fired by experience, having been co-editor of two literary magazines): a gaggle of bored, sullen, college students, who are texting while leafing through submissions to the magazine on which each is part of the editorial staff. That is the rhythm of their lives. Their literature. Web pages. Sound bites. Synopses and books about books about books. I once had a creative writing graduate student defend his failure to read literature by claiming that it would dilute his originality.  Has the world passed me by? Am I merely a relic?

Perhaps. Does it matter? Probably not. It's not as though I am going to stop writing. It is an affliction I can't seem to shake. The poems just happen. Perhaps the point is not to be published, to be acclaimed, to be compensated. Perhaps the point is the writing of the poem. All of it, all the books, all the experience, all the unconscious, all the conscious all comes down to that: the writing of the last poem.  Until the next one.


March 31

To what purpose, April, do you return tomorrow?
Like a virgin consecrated to God, producing nothing
But joy full of sorrow and the empty rehearsal
The same cruel trick played over and over and then
Smiling with your canine teeth exposed
Advertising like a sometimes distant friend
That winter is surely over until it comes around again

Keith Dunlap

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

A Lesson From Life?

It's like jazz; sometimes you play the wrong note, but you play it fortissimo, and maybe it's the right note:


Lines Written At the Northampton General Lunatic Asylum (John Clare)

What I do is for me, for that I came
In a world full of worry, I am to be defamed
I am mine own sound, but mine sound is not the same
Because a hazel wood fire permeates my brain

I long for scenes where men hath never tread
As my doctor, Fenwick Skrimchire, once said
“After years of poetical prosing,” the present insanity ensued
I live among the ignorant a man hungry for food

Disheveled I wander in the quickening maze
East of me, winter, west of me, winter days
I stumble like a chariot hitched to a crippled blaze
Into the world’s own chaos half-crazed

With constructed meaning, with the simple earth’s delight
I am mine own museum vacant of mine own sight

Keith Dunlap

Saturday, February 9, 2013

Post-Post-Post Post (After Andy Warhol)

Andy Warhol happened. High and low collapsed into each other. Beauty and truth were replaced by the image as manipulated by commerce to entice the consumer. All this was showcased by Andy Warhol. The lyric was replaced by the jingle. All pop music, even rock, is merely an advertisement for an image. We are not trying to live with integrity to a moral ideal (something greater than the self) but to an image (a substitute self). So, what to do?

I propose nothing. Seriously. NOTHING. I predict that if one lives, reads, thinks, breathes, writes, revises at this moment in time, one will be influenced by this fact, one's work will account for this fact. Don't chase it. Do not try self-consciously through irony, self-reflexiveness, or some other mannered response, to incorporate it. Aim at truth. Aim at beauty. Your efforts will reflect the zeitgeist. Or they won't. You can't force it. You can't avoid it. Any attempt to be new will result in a mere novelty.

Stop chasing your shadow. It will follow you.


The Speed of Light

The speed of light is much too slow
I cannot let my panic go
Starting to snow a deliberate snow
The speed of light is much too slow

Nothing happens quite as fast
Snow follows stars, follows snow falling fast
The stars imply the distant past
I wouldn’t want this day to last

How time curves back to show
The speed of light is much too slow
But I wouldn’t want it any faster
As long as you were here with me

On this the best of days my last

Keith Dunlap